"Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known."
-Jeremiah 33:3-
It just mesmerizes me at the thought that God truly speaks to us. He knows us from the inside out and He communicates with us in a unique and very personal way. He is faithful to His promise when He told us in Jeremiah 29:13 that says, "You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart."
During my quiet times with the Lord in prayer and in reading His Word, He has been constantly telling me to put Him first above anything else; to seek Him first before anything and anyone else, and to embrace the suffering that could entail in my intimacy with Him.
I submit to you friends, that just like any other Christian ladies, I am also waiting for life's complement. I am also yearning to have a partner whom I will share my passion to worship and service to God with. I have been praying for a godly man, a kingdom appointed one. Guess I wasn't that mutant or GB (God's best)-idea-proof after all. I didn't get away with that certain longing in my heart. So to speak, I am also one of the "ladies in waiting". God spoke to me last night regarding this during my devotion time. He spoke to me through Psalm 146:3 that says, "Put not your trust in princes, in a son of man, in whom there is no salvation." That verse made me realize that my joy, sense of fulfillment and security lies to Him and Him alone and never will be to men. It reminded me that I should feel contented for He has already made me whole and alive again. I was strongly reminded that I should put my trust not in "prince charming" nor to "knight in shining armor" but in the Kings of kings and Lord of lords who is sovereign over everything and everyone.
God has been constantly reminding me since my 25th birthday that before I long for a human love, I have to saturate my life under his over-consuming love first. I may feel that I am ready, but God says over and over that it has to be me and Him alone first. He is still in the business of pruning me so that I could bear much fruit in the future and by that time, He has made me perfectly fit for the man He has chosen for me even before I have been conceived.
One night I had a dream. A dream of a guy in white, who was happily ministering to my cousins and younger relatives. It was so surreal and vivid. The dream ended up with me walking with that guy in white on a shore. I could relate the walking on a shore scene to my dream wedding which is a sunrise wedding by the beach. Few weeks later, I came across Habakkuk 2:3 that says, "For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie.If it seems slow, wait for it, it will surely come; it will not delay." That verse left my mouth agape for its message was crystal clear. Time and again the Lord told me, "Wait upon Me".
God speaks in whispers. He speaks to us in a still small voice; but if we unplug ourselves to the outer voices of this world, we would actually hear that still small voice of God-- loud and clear. Loud and clear enough for you to ponder about it and to adhere and live out what it says.
